The desires of my heart,
Your will runs so deep.
It puts movement to my feet,
And tells me when to speak.
Patiently waiting Lord to see your plan,
I will seek your face-
I will rest in your hands.
Your timing is perfect,
As surely as winter turns to spring.
Like a wild flower blooming,
Which brings a smile, daily to me.
Without question we should trust and obey.
Your character never changes,
You are the one thing that stays the same.
The desires you’ve given me,
I know will come to be.
Because it’s Your will I desire,
It’s Your will that runs deep.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Red fingernail polish.
For some reason I have a lot of "phrases" going through my head right now..they have been continually flooding my brain kinda like a broken record if you will. (and I know you will). I think they started when I painted my fingernail red.. (red romance that is-ha!)
Some of these are:
Hmmm... I don't know how I feel about that. Funny thing is, I haven't had much to think about.
Sassy, but classy..haha (I'm feeling sassy today- whatever that means!)
Move along, move along.
Yay, buddy!
Well, mylanta! (who says this? apparently I do now..)
Really?? (that's what I said after attempting to fix my hair this morning)
I can turn a gray sky blue, I can make it rain whenever I want it too.. (that's the song thats been in my head for 3ish days)
I wonder...
Are all things really as they seem?
Sometimes you have to be willing to take a risk.
How does a pair of jeans fit the same if you've lost 20 pounds.. ya, thats weird. Does that mean the scale is lying to me?
I wonder what those choc/ pb bars taste like that I made last night.. (the fact that the recipe says one was 216 calories has kept me from finding out). I'm needing a jdm..
I'm not good at taking pictures yet.. i'll try to get better. :) After posting this I thought I could post some more pictures...
I thought it might be fun to show one (whoever that one maybe) where I daily run. Most the thoughts that run through my head happen here, all other times I'm just a blank canvas.
Me looking silly, and feeling sassy (at work mind you).. red fingernail polish will do that to you every time.
Some of these are:
Hmmm... I don't know how I feel about that. Funny thing is, I haven't had much to think about.
Sassy, but classy..haha (I'm feeling sassy today- whatever that means!)
Move along, move along.
Yay, buddy!
Well, mylanta! (who says this? apparently I do now..)
Really?? (that's what I said after attempting to fix my hair this morning)
I can turn a gray sky blue, I can make it rain whenever I want it too.. (that's the song thats been in my head for 3ish days)
I wonder...
Are all things really as they seem?
Sometimes you have to be willing to take a risk.
How does a pair of jeans fit the same if you've lost 20 pounds.. ya, thats weird. Does that mean the scale is lying to me?
I wonder what those choc/ pb bars taste like that I made last night.. (the fact that the recipe says one was 216 calories has kept me from finding out). I'm needing a jdm..
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
We are simply following Him...
Holy moly! What have I done?
A leap of faith, and I’m on the run.
I don’t know where this search will take me
I am confident however the Lords voice will direct me.
Taking a step can be hard, can be scary
Do I need to hurry up, or do I need slow down & tarry..
Question after question thought after thought
The mental aspect alone, for me is a lot!
Paul in Philippians gives some good advice,
Do not be anxious, take time to pray.
The words that follow go on to say:
think on these 8 words in the midst of your day.
(Think on things that are true, noble, right, pure,
Lovely, admirable, excellent & praiseworthy)
The combination of these things comes with a promise too.
Think on these things and
The peace of God will be with you!
What a promise, what a truth in the midst of seeking the Lord.
He is always with us,
He won't leave us alone.
Be strong and courageous DO NOT fear..
The book of Joshua commands and tells us the Lord will always be near.
So instead of stopping and thinking Holy Moly! What have a done?
Stop and pray not my will Lord but yours be done!
The Lord will answer, He will direct.
His timing is perfect, we must not forget.
He is the author and perfector of our faith,
In Hebrews were told He’s the
Same, yesterday, forever and today!
What a blessing,
Will you take hold?
He wants to be your Savior,
To make and to mold.
To teach you daily how to live for Him.
Where we no long have to say
Holy moly! what have I done,
We just know we are simply following Him.
A leap of faith, and I’m on the run.
I don’t know where this search will take me
I am confident however the Lords voice will direct me.
Taking a step can be hard, can be scary
Do I need to hurry up, or do I need slow down & tarry..
Question after question thought after thought
The mental aspect alone, for me is a lot!
Paul in Philippians gives some good advice,
Do not be anxious, take time to pray.
The words that follow go on to say:
think on these 8 words in the midst of your day.
(Think on things that are true, noble, right, pure,
Lovely, admirable, excellent & praiseworthy)
The combination of these things comes with a promise too.
Think on these things and
The peace of God will be with you!
What a promise, what a truth in the midst of seeking the Lord.
He is always with us,
He won't leave us alone.
Be strong and courageous DO NOT fear..
The book of Joshua commands and tells us the Lord will always be near.
So instead of stopping and thinking Holy Moly! What have a done?
Stop and pray not my will Lord but yours be done!
The Lord will answer, He will direct.
His timing is perfect, we must not forget.
He is the author and perfector of our faith,
In Hebrews were told He’s the
Same, yesterday, forever and today!
What a blessing,
Will you take hold?
He wants to be your Savior,
To make and to mold.
To teach you daily how to live for Him.
Where we no long have to say
Holy moly! what have I done,
We just know we are simply following Him.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
the ONLY THING we need
I have gotten to where I basically run every day. Some days I am really excited about getting to run, other days its work; yet I know that when I get done I will feel so good, so I try to push through. There are also some days when I think I'm excited about running but it’s hard for me to stay focused long enough to get done what I want (or need to) get done. (Especially if I'm training for a distanced run). See most the time I run on a treadmill, in a house (that's the workout gym in the boonies) with no tv, I stare at a wall. Thank goodness for my ipod- I on most days get lost in song or thought and the time has passed before I even know it. I've had days that I easily spent 2 hours on the treadmill without even coming close to feeling like 2 hours were gone. Yet still, there are days when I can barely last 20 minutes.. I get bored.. I don't feel like running, quite frankly I'd rather be somewhere else, doing something else.
Yesterday, I had a really good run and some really good thoughts in the process. Because the run was good, it was easy, freeing, etc I was in no hurry to get off the treadmill. I only ran 5 miles, but I could have easily stayed on there for hours and loved every minute of it. This contentment made me stop and think about the other runs (like the ones listed above) which were so hard, when I couldn't help but be ready to get off the treadmill- and let’s be honest sometimes in those moments I've bowed out WAY before reaching my goal. After getting off the treadmill I often wish I'd stuck it out. Fighting boredom would be more worthwhile to me than the feeling of not doing what I set out to accomplish in the first place..
This made me start thinking about life. How often do we get in a place and when it’s not exactly what we thought it would be we want to hurry on to the next thing? I remember growing up and hearing my Mom talk to kids about growing up and how often we go from elementary school thinking life was going to be great in Junior High, or even High School. I'm sure there is some thinking that ah, I just can't wait to be on my own, independent, or life will be perfect when I get married, then the next think you know you are thinking you need kids to make things better. Or even, you think my career will be absolutely perfect if I could just get to this point, or if I'd win this price. Some might even say, Lord- I will not ask for another thing if I could just get to this point and Lord you will get the glory! Granted, all these things are wonderful. Marriage and children are definite desires of my heart- but they will never make life complete... they are blessings from the Lord, over and above what He has already given us.
John 10:10 says, "The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy, yet I have come to give life, and give it to the full."
When Jesus was at the well in John 4, He talks about being the living water:
”So he came to a town of Samaria called Sychar, near the field that Jacob had given to his son Joseph. Jacob’s well was there; so Jesus, wearied as he was from his journey, was sitting beside the well. It was about the sixth hour. A woman from Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give me a drink.” (For his disciples had gone away into the city to buy food.) The Samaritan woman said to him, “How is it that you, a Jew, ask for a drink from me, a woman of Samaria?” (For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans.) Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” The woman said to him, “Sir, you have nothing to draw water with, and the well is deep. Where do you get that living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob? He gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did his sons and his livestock.” Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water, so that I will not be thirsty or have to come here to draw water.”
The Lord, unlike the world, provides us a way to become completely satisfied in Him. The world likes to offer us many things, many pleasures, and in all honesty not all these things are bad. Yet how often do we look to these things to base our feelings, actions, or emotions? At the end of the day, will that provide the consistency we are all looking for, or even seeking in life?
We are told in Hebrews that Jesus is the same, yesterday today and forever. When you look at the Bible from the beginning to end (even on a surface level- side note is that a friend and I were talking about how the more you study the Word, the more you realize you don't know- so I'm not claiming to know it all, just telling you what I've seen.) there is never a flaw, or inconsistency in the Character of Christ. This is completely unbelievable- the Lord will provide, protect, comfort, discipline, redeem, free, satisfy, etc .. Over and over again, that’s what He’s been doing from the beginning of time!
Why then do we constantly get distracted? Lose focus, and forget what we had set out to do? In conversation I had a friend tell me one time, “Andrea- last fall I was completely certain of what I was supposed to do, and was at peace with my decision. Now- I’m not so sure.” All I could really say in that moment… well what has changed? Has your focus changed? Have you let yourself get distracted? I can’t speak into what the Lord is telling you other than to say, seek- pray- search your heart and see if something has come in the way to make your thoughts change. Because I don’t believe the Lord will give us a desire, and a peace that He won’t fulfill.
As we run, we get distracted (like I do so easily on the treadmill). We lose our focus, which also causes us to miss out on what the Lord has for us. Maybe we miss out on growth, maybe we miss on the experience of seeing the Lord move, and even the experience of Him using us for His glory! All these things are challenging yes, and sometimes we want to jump off the treadmill- Especially when we can’t see exactly what the Lord is working on. However, I know for certain He is always working. If you don’t know Him yet.. He wants to do a work within you. He wants to change your world! And if you do know Him, He wants to continue working in you! He wants to work through you, to work in others. We serve an individual God, whose come to save the world... its not about US, its about HIM, and people coming to know HIM.
How often in this world are we waiting for or wanting the next big thing? When in all honesty if you know Jesus, you have the ONLY THING we need. Sure we'll recieve blessings (Ps. 128:5), but He is the ULTIMATE blessing. Don't jump ship in the middle of a great run, because you get distracted by something at the time that seems better... there is no better. There isn't anything that compares! Let the Lord be your focus, your ONLY THING needed. When He is the ONLY THING we need, everything else seems to look completely different. Experience that joy today.. Be blessed!
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Ps. 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Yesterday, I had a really good run and some really good thoughts in the process. Because the run was good, it was easy, freeing, etc I was in no hurry to get off the treadmill. I only ran 5 miles, but I could have easily stayed on there for hours and loved every minute of it. This contentment made me stop and think about the other runs (like the ones listed above) which were so hard, when I couldn't help but be ready to get off the treadmill- and let’s be honest sometimes in those moments I've bowed out WAY before reaching my goal. After getting off the treadmill I often wish I'd stuck it out. Fighting boredom would be more worthwhile to me than the feeling of not doing what I set out to accomplish in the first place..
This made me start thinking about life. How often do we get in a place and when it’s not exactly what we thought it would be we want to hurry on to the next thing? I remember growing up and hearing my Mom talk to kids about growing up and how often we go from elementary school thinking life was going to be great in Junior High, or even High School. I'm sure there is some thinking that ah, I just can't wait to be on my own, independent, or life will be perfect when I get married, then the next think you know you are thinking you need kids to make things better. Or even, you think my career will be absolutely perfect if I could just get to this point, or if I'd win this price. Some might even say, Lord- I will not ask for another thing if I could just get to this point and Lord you will get the glory! Granted, all these things are wonderful. Marriage and children are definite desires of my heart- but they will never make life complete... they are blessings from the Lord, over and above what He has already given us.
John 10:10 says, "The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy, yet I have come to give life, and give it to the full."
When Jesus was at the well in John 4, He talks about being the living water:
”So he came to a town of Samaria called Sychar, near the field that Jacob had given to his son Joseph. Jacob’s well was there; so Jesus, wearied as he was from his journey, was sitting beside the well. It was about the sixth hour. A woman from Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, “Give me a drink.” (For his disciples had gone away into the city to buy food.) The Samaritan woman said to him, “How is it that you, a Jew, ask for a drink from me, a woman of Samaria?” (For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans.) Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is that is saying to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” The woman said to him, “Sir, you have nothing to draw water with, and the well is deep. Where do you get that living water? Are you greater than our father Jacob? He gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did his sons and his livestock.” Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water, so that I will not be thirsty or have to come here to draw water.”
The Lord, unlike the world, provides us a way to become completely satisfied in Him. The world likes to offer us many things, many pleasures, and in all honesty not all these things are bad. Yet how often do we look to these things to base our feelings, actions, or emotions? At the end of the day, will that provide the consistency we are all looking for, or even seeking in life?
We are told in Hebrews that Jesus is the same, yesterday today and forever. When you look at the Bible from the beginning to end (even on a surface level- side note is that a friend and I were talking about how the more you study the Word, the more you realize you don't know- so I'm not claiming to know it all, just telling you what I've seen.) there is never a flaw, or inconsistency in the Character of Christ. This is completely unbelievable- the Lord will provide, protect, comfort, discipline, redeem, free, satisfy, etc .. Over and over again, that’s what He’s been doing from the beginning of time!
Why then do we constantly get distracted? Lose focus, and forget what we had set out to do? In conversation I had a friend tell me one time, “Andrea- last fall I was completely certain of what I was supposed to do, and was at peace with my decision. Now- I’m not so sure.” All I could really say in that moment… well what has changed? Has your focus changed? Have you let yourself get distracted? I can’t speak into what the Lord is telling you other than to say, seek- pray- search your heart and see if something has come in the way to make your thoughts change. Because I don’t believe the Lord will give us a desire, and a peace that He won’t fulfill.
As we run, we get distracted (like I do so easily on the treadmill). We lose our focus, which also causes us to miss out on what the Lord has for us. Maybe we miss out on growth, maybe we miss on the experience of seeing the Lord move, and even the experience of Him using us for His glory! All these things are challenging yes, and sometimes we want to jump off the treadmill- Especially when we can’t see exactly what the Lord is working on. However, I know for certain He is always working. If you don’t know Him yet.. He wants to do a work within you. He wants to change your world! And if you do know Him, He wants to continue working in you! He wants to work through you, to work in others. We serve an individual God, whose come to save the world... its not about US, its about HIM, and people coming to know HIM.
How often in this world are we waiting for or wanting the next big thing? When in all honesty if you know Jesus, you have the ONLY THING we need. Sure we'll recieve blessings (Ps. 128:5), but He is the ULTIMATE blessing. Don't jump ship in the middle of a great run, because you get distracted by something at the time that seems better... there is no better. There isn't anything that compares! Let the Lord be your focus, your ONLY THING needed. When He is the ONLY THING we need, everything else seems to look completely different. Experience that joy today.. Be blessed!
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Ps. 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Thursday, March 25, 2010
MUCHNESS
So this morning as I was driving to work, I thought a lot about a movie I had seen last week. A week ago I went to go see Alice in Wonderland with a friend.. I didn't realize until I started watching the movie though, that I had actually not ever seen the original (oops, don't tell Homeboy). It was a cute little movie, that I didn't go see for a deep meaning, yet simply enjoyment. Like I said though, today I couldn't help but think of the movie and how I can relate to where Alice is in life. She continually has the same dream, yet cannot overcome it because she gets frighened in the middle, or doesn't think she can handle the situation at hand. The Mad Hatter tells her at one point, "You used to be much more..."muchier." You've lost your muchness." Such funny wording, yet I got exactly what he meant.
Due to somethings that have happened in my past I too had lost my "muchness" (sounds funny doesn't it? I can't believe I'm really using Alice in Wonderland to explain this). The missing muchness is an area of my life that has needed a major overhaul for sometime. Because: muchness is like the ump to get things going, the bait that catches the fish, the wings that fly the bird (?) haha. See the happenings of my past allowed me to come up short in a lot of different situations, frustrating situations, which after experiencing a couple times you just want to go through the motions of doing things so you don't have to deal with the hurt and frustrations anymore. And because of this attitude you quit looking to see what the Lord is doing in the midst of these situations which could help grow you into the person He has you to become. (Romans 8:28).
Through the process of the movie Alice in Wonderland, she is faced with many situations inwhich she has to overcome fears, doubts, etc. I found it interesting that usually she'd be timid approaching these situations, yet after remember something that her father had told her as a child- she would charge on and conquer. I spent a year at the Institute being taugth the Word daily which added depth to the foundation on which I stand. It also provided me Words from my Heavenly Father to face situations in the past in which I have usually ran from. Verses that tell me who He is, and who I am in Him. It's not easy to face stones left unturned, yet amazing to me that just like in Alice's case, the more that I listen to Him and His Word's and let them infiltrate my life- the stronger the force behind the way inwhich I live. I guess what I'm telling you is that the "muchness" is returning. :) As Alice would say, "How's this for muchness?" I'm living in the boonies (by myself), and the Lord is blessing my socks off daily, He is moving in me teaching me, growing me... restoring me in ways I never knew imaginable. The Lord knew I needed to be placed here, so that I could only focus on Him and allow Him to teach me knew things.
I will finish with this thought: Alice at the end has to overcome a jabawake (sorry if I spelled that wrong), and she has to use a special sword. She was basically told she just had to show up and the sword would know what to do. What a great reminder to us the Lord will fight the battle for us, we just have to pick up the sword. We basically just have to be willing to let Him lead, be willing to take action in what He is doing, and let Him do it. HE''S ALREADY WON THE BATTLE! This could apply to a lot of different areas in my life right now, and daily the Lord and I are conquering these things. It feels good to desire to do things, to see the Lords purpose throughout, and to want to be a part of it. Yet in the midst of those desires, I still get destracted. Don't we all? Since January I've been asking the Lord to show me what needs to be a part of my life and He has consistantly shown me- yet I haven't always followed through with everything. Something I have wanted to take time to do for awhile now is to work on a chidren's devotional book that I started this summer while working at Kanakuk.. Therefore with great MUCHNESS for the next 52 days (random number I know- its just the one I feel like fits the best for the plan) I will work on this devotional book and see what the Lord plans to do through it.
Do you desire more muchness in your life? Its been a long process but the Lord most certainly provides when we ask. The Lord wants to fill you up, heal your wounds, and minister to you in a new way. He wants to be behind (well and in front of) your every move. Will you let Him be? Serve Him with a new found MUCHNESS today! Be blessed!
Due to somethings that have happened in my past I too had lost my "muchness" (sounds funny doesn't it? I can't believe I'm really using Alice in Wonderland to explain this). The missing muchness is an area of my life that has needed a major overhaul for sometime. Because: muchness is like the ump to get things going, the bait that catches the fish, the wings that fly the bird (?) haha. See the happenings of my past allowed me to come up short in a lot of different situations, frustrating situations, which after experiencing a couple times you just want to go through the motions of doing things so you don't have to deal with the hurt and frustrations anymore. And because of this attitude you quit looking to see what the Lord is doing in the midst of these situations which could help grow you into the person He has you to become. (Romans 8:28).
Through the process of the movie Alice in Wonderland, she is faced with many situations inwhich she has to overcome fears, doubts, etc. I found it interesting that usually she'd be timid approaching these situations, yet after remember something that her father had told her as a child- she would charge on and conquer. I spent a year at the Institute being taugth the Word daily which added depth to the foundation on which I stand. It also provided me Words from my Heavenly Father to face situations in the past in which I have usually ran from. Verses that tell me who He is, and who I am in Him. It's not easy to face stones left unturned, yet amazing to me that just like in Alice's case, the more that I listen to Him and His Word's and let them infiltrate my life- the stronger the force behind the way inwhich I live. I guess what I'm telling you is that the "muchness" is returning. :) As Alice would say, "How's this for muchness?" I'm living in the boonies (by myself), and the Lord is blessing my socks off daily, He is moving in me teaching me, growing me... restoring me in ways I never knew imaginable. The Lord knew I needed to be placed here, so that I could only focus on Him and allow Him to teach me knew things.
I will finish with this thought: Alice at the end has to overcome a jabawake (sorry if I spelled that wrong), and she has to use a special sword. She was basically told she just had to show up and the sword would know what to do. What a great reminder to us the Lord will fight the battle for us, we just have to pick up the sword. We basically just have to be willing to let Him lead, be willing to take action in what He is doing, and let Him do it. HE''S ALREADY WON THE BATTLE! This could apply to a lot of different areas in my life right now, and daily the Lord and I are conquering these things. It feels good to desire to do things, to see the Lords purpose throughout, and to want to be a part of it. Yet in the midst of those desires, I still get destracted. Don't we all? Since January I've been asking the Lord to show me what needs to be a part of my life and He has consistantly shown me- yet I haven't always followed through with everything. Something I have wanted to take time to do for awhile now is to work on a chidren's devotional book that I started this summer while working at Kanakuk.. Therefore with great MUCHNESS for the next 52 days (random number I know- its just the one I feel like fits the best for the plan) I will work on this devotional book and see what the Lord plans to do through it.
Do you desire more muchness in your life? Its been a long process but the Lord most certainly provides when we ask. The Lord wants to fill you up, heal your wounds, and minister to you in a new way. He wants to be behind (well and in front of) your every move. Will you let Him be? Serve Him with a new found MUCHNESS today! Be blessed!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Change.
A scary, daunting task,
One that never seems to end.
Am I making the progress I need to make?
Or is my goal just seemingly too grand.
Day by day the steps are made,
Hoping for success.
The process still seems so slow,
Maybe I should re-evaluate?
Looking back on the course of the time,
Though it seems so long,
I turn to Jesus, & gain courage to say
"Lord give me strength to finish this walk,
Even when it feels like it's a crawl."
It’s amazing how quick He can change our view,
Because suddenly I see-
This slow process that I’ve seen
Is creating depth deep within me.
In Psalm 1 it says "Blessed is the man or woman,
Whose delight is in the law of the LORD,
They are like a tree planted by streams of water,
Producing fruit when the seasons call."
Lord, so in this time of change for me,
Planting my roots in further deep.
Let my focus be only on you,
letting your Words be what lead me.
You are the life, the living stream
this Psalm is talking about.
You offer water to those who thirst &
Promise when we seek you there will be no drought.
I need your living water, Lord
To fill me daily, you see.
Your living water filling me up,
Is what's producing the change in me...
Psalm 1:1-3 "Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. "
One that never seems to end.
Am I making the progress I need to make?
Or is my goal just seemingly too grand.
Day by day the steps are made,
Hoping for success.
The process still seems so slow,
Maybe I should re-evaluate?
Looking back on the course of the time,
Though it seems so long,
I turn to Jesus, & gain courage to say
"Lord give me strength to finish this walk,
Even when it feels like it's a crawl."
It’s amazing how quick He can change our view,
Because suddenly I see-
This slow process that I’ve seen
Is creating depth deep within me.
In Psalm 1 it says "Blessed is the man or woman,
Whose delight is in the law of the LORD,
They are like a tree planted by streams of water,
Producing fruit when the seasons call."
Lord, so in this time of change for me,
Planting my roots in further deep.
Let my focus be only on you,
letting your Words be what lead me.
You are the life, the living stream
this Psalm is talking about.
You offer water to those who thirst &
Promise when we seek you there will be no drought.
I need your living water, Lord
To fill me daily, you see.
Your living water filling me up,
Is what's producing the change in me...
Psalm 1:1-3 "Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. "
Thursday, February 4, 2010
He always know when to answer...
I have now been in the "boonies" for a week and a half straight. I think this is a record for the longest amount of time I've been here in one stint. In trying to really seek the Lord in His direction I have really had a positive attitude about my time here, and really just relishing in the fact that the Lord has put me here to continue teaching and growing me. Then yesterday happened. :-). Waking up very excited it is Wednesday and that in 2 days I get to go home and see my family I charge on with my day.
Now I'm not sure if you all are aware but it's iced/snowed a little over the weekend, and yesterday afternoon we realized our roof was saggin' a little. At the same time, I begin hearing news that it is once again going to snow/ice (which ever way you want to put them in order) again this weekend. I automatically thought- if I have to stay here over the weekend again... grrrr.... I was not a happy girl- at all.
I was excited however because we got off work early and therefore I got to go run early. On a funny sidenote, I have made it a competition to try to beat a lady to the treadmill daily (there is only one at the place I workout). So if I make it there first I don't have to stay as late. So yesterday I was done with my 6 miles before she even showed up. So that was a blessing- but that didn't mean I had a good attitude at the beginning. My attitude at the beginning of the run was horrible. I began expressing my thoughts with the Lord. (aren't you so glad you can present anything to the Lord?) The Lord and I wrestled with my thoughts of frustration, the chance of snow, and why I couldn't just be content with being here.
Lately the Lord has showed me so interesting things about life. One of those things being that He's always provided me a "getaway" from the world. When I was young it was the tumbling gym, in jr. high and high school it was the tumbling gym and going to Edmond for cheerleading, then in college it was my summers spent at Kanakuk. I have been thinking about these places, and what made them be such an oasis for me- so I can figure out how to make those oasis' a way of life for me everyday. Yesterday the picture was taken a little further.
Aggravated that I had been so positive all week, and now was struck with a bad attitude I was thinking about "oasis" of the tumbling and realized that everyday I went into the gym didn't produce a good tumbling day. Sometimes it just didn't happen. Frustrated yes- but that didn't keep me from tumbling I continued to tumble even when practice wasn't going the way I wanted to. Interesting now that when I think about the time at the gym I don't think about the number of "bad" tumbling days were in the midst of all the good ones. I wonder if my time here in the "boonies" could be the same?
I then thought about how I started tumbling at a very young age. I was easily doing backhandsprings by age 5. There was a rule at my house, that you had to continue tumbling (competitively or in a class) until we were old enough to cheer, or some other sport. My mom knew that if you learned to tumble young you had to continue tumlbing through your growth. If you don't tumble through your growth- then you decide you are ready to tumble again things are hard, really really hard. After growing you're having to get used to a whole new body, taller, longer, etc. Here's what's cool though is as I thought about that I realized that even tumbling through growth is awkward, and hard. Its just easier to keep tumbling through the growth rather than to stop and try to pick it up on the other side.
Just like I am learning in life. Growth, being stretched, is not comfortable, it's awkward- it'd hard. But I would rather treck on and continue growing and learning on the truth I know. I know that at the end I will be strengthened, and that this time is set up for me to grow and to prepare for what is to come next.
What a resolved peace I had after leaving the treadmill yesterday. What was frustration was brought in front of the Lord, we wrestled, I spoke honestly about my feelings. And He answered every so sweetly helping me understand what He is doing in my life right now. What do you need to bring before the Lord? Are you prepared to fight through those "no good tumbling" days that make you want to quit? Take time to give it to the Lord, He will not miss an opportunity to speak to you when you are ready to listen. Be blessed.
1 Peter 5:7 " Cast your cares on the Lord for He cares for you."
Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."
Psalm 145:8 "The LORD is merciful and compassionate, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Now I'm not sure if you all are aware but it's iced/snowed a little over the weekend, and yesterday afternoon we realized our roof was saggin' a little. At the same time, I begin hearing news that it is once again going to snow/ice (which ever way you want to put them in order) again this weekend. I automatically thought- if I have to stay here over the weekend again... grrrr.... I was not a happy girl- at all.
I was excited however because we got off work early and therefore I got to go run early. On a funny sidenote, I have made it a competition to try to beat a lady to the treadmill daily (there is only one at the place I workout). So if I make it there first I don't have to stay as late. So yesterday I was done with my 6 miles before she even showed up. So that was a blessing- but that didn't mean I had a good attitude at the beginning. My attitude at the beginning of the run was horrible. I began expressing my thoughts with the Lord. (aren't you so glad you can present anything to the Lord?) The Lord and I wrestled with my thoughts of frustration, the chance of snow, and why I couldn't just be content with being here.
Lately the Lord has showed me so interesting things about life. One of those things being that He's always provided me a "getaway" from the world. When I was young it was the tumbling gym, in jr. high and high school it was the tumbling gym and going to Edmond for cheerleading, then in college it was my summers spent at Kanakuk. I have been thinking about these places, and what made them be such an oasis for me- so I can figure out how to make those oasis' a way of life for me everyday. Yesterday the picture was taken a little further.
Aggravated that I had been so positive all week, and now was struck with a bad attitude I was thinking about "oasis" of the tumbling and realized that everyday I went into the gym didn't produce a good tumbling day. Sometimes it just didn't happen. Frustrated yes- but that didn't keep me from tumbling I continued to tumble even when practice wasn't going the way I wanted to. Interesting now that when I think about the time at the gym I don't think about the number of "bad" tumbling days were in the midst of all the good ones. I wonder if my time here in the "boonies" could be the same?
I then thought about how I started tumbling at a very young age. I was easily doing backhandsprings by age 5. There was a rule at my house, that you had to continue tumbling (competitively or in a class) until we were old enough to cheer, or some other sport. My mom knew that if you learned to tumble young you had to continue tumlbing through your growth. If you don't tumble through your growth- then you decide you are ready to tumble again things are hard, really really hard. After growing you're having to get used to a whole new body, taller, longer, etc. Here's what's cool though is as I thought about that I realized that even tumbling through growth is awkward, and hard. Its just easier to keep tumbling through the growth rather than to stop and try to pick it up on the other side.
Just like I am learning in life. Growth, being stretched, is not comfortable, it's awkward- it'd hard. But I would rather treck on and continue growing and learning on the truth I know. I know that at the end I will be strengthened, and that this time is set up for me to grow and to prepare for what is to come next.
What a resolved peace I had after leaving the treadmill yesterday. What was frustration was brought in front of the Lord, we wrestled, I spoke honestly about my feelings. And He answered every so sweetly helping me understand what He is doing in my life right now. What do you need to bring before the Lord? Are you prepared to fight through those "no good tumbling" days that make you want to quit? Take time to give it to the Lord, He will not miss an opportunity to speak to you when you are ready to listen. Be blessed.
1 Peter 5:7 " Cast your cares on the Lord for He cares for you."
Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."
Psalm 145:8 "The LORD is merciful and compassionate, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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